Pamela Anderson is mourning the death of Hugh Hefner – whom she called “the most important person in my life.” “I have so many thoughts, I have no brain right now to edit,” she wrote. “I am me because of you. You taught me everything important about freedom and respect. Outside of my family. You were the most important person in my life.” The Baywatch star continued, “You gave me my life… People tell me all the time That I was your favorite…I’m in such deep shock.” Anderson wrote that Hefner was using a walker the last time she saw him, but he showed her a piece of paper that had her name with a heart around it that he had in his pocket. Goodbye #Hef Mr Hefner I have so many thoughts, I have no brain n right now to edit I am me because of you You taught me everything important about freedom and respect. Outside of my family You were the most important person in my life. You gave me my life… People tell me all the time That I was your favorite… I'm in such deep shock. But you were old, your back hurt you so much. Last time I saw you You were using a walker. You didn't want me to see. You couldn't hear. You had a piece of paper in your pocket you showed me – with my name Pamela with a heart around it. Now, I'm falling apart. This feeling is so crazy. It's raining in Paris now. I'm by the window. Everything anyone loves about me is because you understood me. Accepted me and encouraged me to be myself. Love like no one else. Live recklessly With unfiltered abandon. You said the magazine was about a girl like me. That I embody the spirit you fantasized about. I was the one. You said. I can hear you say – Be brave. There are no rules. Live your life I'm proud of you. There are no mistakes. And with men – Enjoy … (Your wonderful laugh) You have the world by the tail You are a good girl And you are so loved – You are not crazy. You are wild and free Stay strong, Stay vulnerable. … "It's movie time" You loved my boys … You were always, always there for us. With your love Your crazy wisdom. I will miss your everything. Thank you for making the world a better place. A freeer and sexier place. You were a gentleman charming, elegant, chivalrous And so much fun. Goodbye Hef … Your Pamela ???? A post shared by The Pamela Anderson Foundation (@pamelaanderson) on Sep 27, 2017 at 11:35pm PDT The model wrote that Hefner felt she embodied the essence of Playboy. “Everything anyone loves about me is because you understood me. Accepted me and encouraged me to be myself,” she wrote. “Love like no one else. Live recklessly With unfiltered abandon. You said the magazine was about a girl like me. That I embody the spirit you fantasized about. I was the one. You said.” Anderson also thanked Hefner for being there for her family, including sons from her relationship with drummer Tommy Lee, Brandon, 21, and Dylan, 19. “I will miss your everything,” she concluded the post. “Thank you for making the world a better place. A freeer and sexier place. You were a gentleman charming, elegant, chivalrous And so much fun.” She signed the tribute, “Goodbye Hef … Your Pamela.” Anderson also shared a black and white photo of Hefner kissing her on the cheek without a caption. A post shared by The Pamela Anderson Foundation (@pamelaanderson) on Sep 27, 2017 at 11:18pm PDT Celebrities and other former Playboy cover models expressed their condolences and shared moving tributes to Hefner on social media. Hefner peacefully passed away on Wednesday from natural causes at his home, The Playboy Mansion, surrounded by loved ones, according to a statement from the Playboy founder’s rep. He was 91. He is survived by his wife Crystal Harris and four children. This article was originally published on PEOPLE.com
